Watch:
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Then check out
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Enjoy,
E
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Sunday, July 27, 2008
Life and Death - this weekend it was the latter
As I sit in the house that Tom built, reflecting on his 54 years on this planet, I can't help but shed tears for a man I felt close to and yet knew for such a short period of time. There will be more to come, but I wanted to say "I already miss you"
E
E
Saturday, July 26, 2008
Hello Kettle, this is Pot. You are black.
"Ahh the tangled web we weave..." and so many other clichés come to mind.
So President Bush says "No regime should ignore the will of its own people and calls from the international community without consequences." in this statement. I agree with him. I just don't understand how anyone in their right mind, hell we don't even need that much intelligence, how about someone with basic reasoning abilities cannot look at this and realize the hypocrisies involved.
I guess, when god tells you what to do and how to run your administration you don't have to be bound by doing unto others as you would have them do unto you.
How sad.
E
So President Bush says "No regime should ignore the will of its own people and calls from the international community without consequences." in this statement. I agree with him. I just don't understand how anyone in their right mind, hell we don't even need that much intelligence, how about someone with basic reasoning abilities cannot look at this and realize the hypocrisies involved.
I guess, when god tells you what to do and how to run your administration you don't have to be bound by doing unto others as you would have them do unto you.
How sad.
E
Score 1 for Net Neutrality
I can say w00t!
The FCC finally got one right. Thank God for small miracles. Here's to freedom on the net! Cheers!
Hammer drops at last: FCC opposes Comcast P2P throttling:
The Comcast P2P saga has come to its final chapter as a majority of FCC commissioners today voted to sanction the company. The FCC's Internet Policy Statement now sports some unexpectedly sharp teeth.
The FCC finally got one right. Thank God for small miracles. Here's to freedom on the net! Cheers!
Hammer drops at last: FCC opposes Comcast P2P throttling:
The Comcast P2P saga has come to its final chapter as a majority of FCC commissioners today voted to sanction the company. The FCC's Internet Policy Statement now sports some unexpectedly sharp teeth.
Friday, July 25, 2008
'Last Lecture' professor dies at 47
My sweetheart sent me a link to his speech and it was moving. Challenging people to live - to really live is one of the greatest callings I can think of. And what is really great is how pure this man was about it. Ani Difranco was right when she said "I don't care if they eat me alive, I've got better things to do than survive"
I hope you live, really live.
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Saturday, July 19, 2008
This Hammer
For the first time this week, I came to work with an inspired attitude. It had nothing to do with work or my first full week of workouts or my run at the poker tables (like I could be inspired by that pain). I wouldn't say that I had a paradigm shift really, more of a "right on" or "I should be doing that" sort of moment.
I was listening to my mp3 player and a Steve Earle song came on. This isn't really anything new, since I listen to a lot of Steve Earle music. That being said, the song "Steve's Hammer (for Pete)" came on. I really started to feel good. You see, I've been having a really tough time dealing with politics. I'm losing faith in the broken system. But then as I listened to this song I realized something important; I'm a hopeless romantic - at heart and in practice. The lyrics screamed out to me:
"One of these days I’m gonna lay this hammer down And I won’t have to drag this weight around When there ain’t no hunger And there ain’t no pain Then I won’t have to swing this thing One of these days I’m gonna lay this hammer down"
Music is so powerful, if you allow it to be powerful.
Sometimes you find direction in places you never think you will find it.
I know that it is unrealistic to believe that in my lifetime the evil that afflicts this world will be washed away. I know that it is unrealistic to believe that it will ever be washed away. HOWEVER, just because it is impossible, does that mean it is not a worthy endeavor? Do we hope against all hope, or accept mediocrity as the way of the world? Are we strong enough to stand up and say "I believe" when all those around us say "that's just the way it is, the way it has always been, and the way it will always be"?
You see I'm also a cynic (no, you don't say). Once a former boss of mine said "Save some of that cynicism for when you are an old man, at this rate you will have all your cynicism used up by 40". I like to make light of obvious and not so obvious situations, thoughts, thought processes, beliefs, theories, and the list goes on and on. Most people don't understand that cynicism is only one side of a multi sided coin. At least one other side is optimism/faith/belief/hope. In fact, I believe that the optimism fuels the cynicism, possibly defines it. How is that? Simple really. When you can see everything that is wrong, broken, or lost and still look forward and say "I believe" then you have found true strength for change or to carry on or to move to the next level (choose your semantic here).
When I was in college and even before, I had (and still have) a fascination with Don Quixote. In the classic film "The Man of La Mancha", Peter O'Toole's portrayal of Don Quixote brought this character to life in a most magical way. He believes is righting the wrongs of humanity, in adoring women and defending them and their honor, in defending the less fortunate and those who cannot defend themselves, and the list of goodness goes on and on. And he does it despite the reality of the situations around him. In the film he sings "The Impossible Dream" which is a foundation for all hopeless romantics to follow. And I quote:
"To dream the impossible dream To fight the unbeatable foe To bear with unbearable sorrow To run where the brave dare not go
So I ask you again, just because it is impossible, does that mean it is not a worthy endeavor?
The Wright brothers didn't think so, and they accomplished the impossible - to make man fly. Don Quixote helped the whore Aldonza to believe that she was worth something and she became his lady in waiting Dulcinea. You see, sometimes, just sometimes, the impossible becomes possible and the world becomes a better place.
This is why I'm a hopeless romantic. This is why I hope against all hope. This is why I can't lay my hammer down - yet.
I was listening to my mp3 player and a Steve Earle song came on. This isn't really anything new, since I listen to a lot of Steve Earle music. That being said, the song "Steve's Hammer (for Pete)" came on. I really started to feel good. You see, I've been having a really tough time dealing with politics. I'm losing faith in the broken system. But then as I listened to this song I realized something important; I'm a hopeless romantic - at heart and in practice. The lyrics screamed out to me:
"One of these days I’m gonna lay this hammer down And I won’t have to drag this weight around When there ain’t no hunger And there ain’t no pain Then I won’t have to swing this thing One of these days I’m gonna lay this hammer down"
Music is so powerful, if you allow it to be powerful.
Sometimes you find direction in places you never think you will find it.
I know that it is unrealistic to believe that in my lifetime the evil that afflicts this world will be washed away. I know that it is unrealistic to believe that it will ever be washed away. HOWEVER, just because it is impossible, does that mean it is not a worthy endeavor? Do we hope against all hope, or accept mediocrity as the way of the world? Are we strong enough to stand up and say "I believe" when all those around us say "that's just the way it is, the way it has always been, and the way it will always be"?
You see I'm also a cynic (no, you don't say). Once a former boss of mine said "Save some of that cynicism for when you are an old man, at this rate you will have all your cynicism used up by 40". I like to make light of obvious and not so obvious situations, thoughts, thought processes, beliefs, theories, and the list goes on and on. Most people don't understand that cynicism is only one side of a multi sided coin. At least one other side is optimism/faith/belief/hope. In fact, I believe that the optimism fuels the cynicism, possibly defines it. How is that? Simple really. When you can see everything that is wrong, broken, or lost and still look forward and say "I believe" then you have found true strength for change or to carry on or to move to the next level (choose your semantic here).
When I was in college and even before, I had (and still have) a fascination with Don Quixote. In the classic film "The Man of La Mancha", Peter O'Toole's portrayal of Don Quixote brought this character to life in a most magical way. He believes is righting the wrongs of humanity, in adoring women and defending them and their honor, in defending the less fortunate and those who cannot defend themselves, and the list of goodness goes on and on. And he does it despite the reality of the situations around him. In the film he sings "The Impossible Dream" which is a foundation for all hopeless romantics to follow. And I quote:
"To dream the impossible dream To fight the unbeatable foe To bear with unbearable sorrow To run where the brave dare not go
To right the unrightable wrong
To love pure and chaste from afar
To try when your arms are too weary
To reach the unreachable star
This is my quest
To follow that star
No matter how hopeless
No matter how far
To fight for the right
Without question or pause
To be willing to march into Hell
For a heavenly cause
And I know if I'll only be true
To this glorious quest
That my heart will lie peaceful and calm
When I'm laid to my rest
And the world will be better for this That one man, scorned and covered with scars Still strove with his last ounce of courage To reach the unreachable star"
So I ask you again, just because it is impossible, does that mean it is not a worthy endeavor?
The Wright brothers didn't think so, and they accomplished the impossible - to make man fly. Don Quixote helped the whore Aldonza to believe that she was worth something and she became his lady in waiting Dulcinea. You see, sometimes, just sometimes, the impossible becomes possible and the world becomes a better place.
This is why I'm a hopeless romantic. This is why I hope against all hope. This is why I can't lay my hammer down - yet.
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Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Thank God for Dennis Kucinich
Let me say that in this time of spineless politicians it is refreshing to see someone stand up for what they believe in. It reacquaints me with the word "hope" at a time I really need it. Thank you Dennis...
You can find this story at:
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2008/07/15/kucinich-impeachment-batt_n_112866.html
Be good, and if you can't at least be good at it,
E
You can find this story at:
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2008/07/15/kucinich-impeachment-batt_n_112866.html
Be good, and if you can't at least be good at it,
E
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Friday, July 11, 2008
Feeling Betrayed: Obama's Collapse on FISA is Unforgivable
I never intended this to be a political blog, and I hope that no one really sees it this way. With that said, it is so hard to escape the issues of the day during this campaign cycle. The article linked below does a good job of expressing a very sad situation, I believe, in which most of us now find ourselves. There is no presidential candidate who I can, in good conscience, vote for this September. I have no candidate. At least not, one who has a legitimate chance to win the election. I used to vote Republican. Last cycle I thought I had found a home in the Democratic Party. In the primary, this year I voted for Ron Paul. I have always voted my conscience based on the reality of the political situation with which we are faced - one reason why I've never been able to vote for Ralph Nader and the Green Party (I said one reason, there are others). This is the first election in my lifetime where my understanding of political issues coupled with the political landscape leaves me paralyzed as to how to vote.
With the passing of the FISA (H.R. 6304) bill I can no longer cast my vote for Obama - he voted for it (McCain didn't even have the guts to show up for the vote - which means I can't trust him on the tough decisions - he just won't show up). In my personal opinion, anyone who would vote for this bill is guilty of an injustice on par with treason. Yes, treason. It is treasonous to attempt to weaken, erode, or dismiss our Bill of Rights. This is clearly what this bill does. There is no acceptable excuse to vote for this bill. NONE. I've heard the arguments on both sides, and I stand by my statement.
I never thought I would say this, never in my life, but I wish, I was lucky enough to be able vote for Hillary. She had the balls that both Obama and McCain lack - to vote no, to stand up for our country, to stand up for our constitution. I have never respected her more than I do today. I wish this vote had come before the nominee had been chosen for the Democratic Party.
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With the passing of the FISA (H.R. 6304) bill I can no longer cast my vote for Obama - he voted for it (McCain didn't even have the guts to show up for the vote - which means I can't trust him on the tough decisions - he just won't show up). In my personal opinion, anyone who would vote for this bill is guilty of an injustice on par with treason. Yes, treason. It is treasonous to attempt to weaken, erode, or dismiss our Bill of Rights. This is clearly what this bill does. There is no acceptable excuse to vote for this bill. NONE. I've heard the arguments on both sides, and I stand by my statement.
I never thought I would say this, never in my life, but I wish, I was lucky enough to be able vote for Hillary. She had the balls that both Obama and McCain lack - to vote no, to stand up for our country, to stand up for our constitution. I have never respected her more than I do today. I wish this vote had come before the nominee had been chosen for the Democratic Party.
Joan Walsh echoes many of my feelings...
"I've admired Obama, but I never confused him with a genuine progressive leader. Today I don't admire him at all. His collapse on FISA is unforgivable. The only thing Obama has going for him this week is that McCain is matching him misstep for misstep. The only thing more offensive than Obama's yes vote on FISA was McCain's decision to skip the vote"
"I've admired Obama, but I never confused him with a genuine progressive leader. Today I don't admire him at all. His collapse on FISA is unforgivable. The only thing Obama has going for him this week is that McCain is matching him misstep for misstep. The only thing more offensive than Obama's yes vote on FISA was McCain's decision to skip the vote"
Once again I'll leave you with words from a founding father:
"They who can give up essential liberty to obtain a little temporary safety, deserve neither liberty nor safety" - Benjamin FranklinBlogged with the Flock Browser
Friday, June 27, 2008
Ron Paul Standing Strong! Internet Gambling HR 5767
06/25/08 Financial Services Committee Markup Session to discuss HR 5767, Payments System Protection Act, cosponsored by Rep. Barney Frank and Rep. Ron Paul. Rep. Paul explains why he opposes big government and Internet censorship regarding Internet poker.
There are a lot of reasons why I supported Ron Paul for President, and this is a good example of one of those reasons.
Do we really need the government to tell us what we can and cannot do based on whether or not our legislators believe the action would be detrimental to us?
We cannot effectively legislate morality for the individual. Here in lies the crux. When we attempt to legislate morality for the individual, we fail (prohibition for instance). I'm not saying we need a free for all and abandon all law. Far from it. I am saying this: if someone wants engage in an activity (providing that it doesn't infringe on someone else's freedom - once the activity infringes on someone else's freedom you have a different issue) who are we to stop them because it doesn't conform to OUR moral code? In a country founded on the belief we have a right to "Life, Liberty, and the Pursuit of Happiness" we cannot, by definition, enforce our beliefs on others.
Thanks to Ron Paul!
E
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Thursday, June 26, 2008
Joss Stone: Piracy is Brilliant, Music Should be Shared
I was first introduced to Joss Stone via her music via my Sweetheart. As I've come to know Joss and her music, I have come to enjoy her more and more and this is just one reason why...
They are quite rare events but on occasion, artists actually encourage fans to share their music online. Singer Joss Stone has no problem doing so at all. In fact, after a recent concert in Argentina she said that piracy is "brilliant".
E
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Wednesday, June 25, 2008
Dodd And Feingold Will Filibuster Telecom Immunity
Thank god there is someone standing up against those who break the law! I really appreciate Chris Dodd and Russ Feingold for standing up against legislation that will continue the Bush Administration's erosion of our constitution. Thank you!
Dodd And Feingold Will Filibuster Telecom Immunity
I just don't understand why it is so difficult for everyone to understand, once we give up the rights our constitution guarantees us, we give up America. Once we accept that our government no longer has to follow the same laws we have to follow it is no longer a government "of the people, by the people, and for the people". When the government comes to you and says "break the law" you are NOT bound to do so. In fact, you are required not to comply. The origins of our country are clear. We have a system of checks and balances which MUST be followed or the entire system is at stake! Once we agree to allow the system to get so far out of balance that the checks not longer hold any weight, once we agree that ANY government agency or administration can act in any manner contrary to the law and the rule of law, once we give up on the system or process of the working of our government then America as a philosophy, as a community, and as a country is finished. From here it is a matter of time until more and more oppressive administrations and agencies (which will begin to be called regimes the more oppressive they become) become the status quo and the "land of the free, and the home of the brave" will become a page in the world's history books - filed under "failed experiment in freedom".
The arguments for and against are simple in philosophy yet complex in specificity. The core question is this: Does the government have the right to take away constitutional freedoms in order to protect its citizens? It is not simple to protect your country in times like these. The answer according to our system of government is - Yes the government has the right to take away constitutional freedoms in order to protect its citizens, HOWEVER it may ONLY do this with oversight (permission based on factual documentation).
I'll leave you with insight from one of our founding fathers:
"They who can give up essential liberty to obtain a little temporary safety, deserve neither liberty nor safety" - Benjamin Franklin
You decide
E
Dodd And Feingold Will Filibuster Telecom Immunity
I just don't understand why it is so difficult for everyone to understand, once we give up the rights our constitution guarantees us, we give up America. Once we accept that our government no longer has to follow the same laws we have to follow it is no longer a government "of the people, by the people, and for the people". When the government comes to you and says "break the law" you are NOT bound to do so. In fact, you are required not to comply. The origins of our country are clear. We have a system of checks and balances which MUST be followed or the entire system is at stake! Once we agree to allow the system to get so far out of balance that the checks not longer hold any weight, once we agree that ANY government agency or administration can act in any manner contrary to the law and the rule of law, once we give up on the system or process of the working of our government then America as a philosophy, as a community, and as a country is finished. From here it is a matter of time until more and more oppressive administrations and agencies (which will begin to be called regimes the more oppressive they become) become the status quo and the "land of the free, and the home of the brave" will become a page in the world's history books - filed under "failed experiment in freedom".
The arguments for and against are simple in philosophy yet complex in specificity. The core question is this: Does the government have the right to take away constitutional freedoms in order to protect its citizens? It is not simple to protect your country in times like these. The answer according to our system of government is - Yes the government has the right to take away constitutional freedoms in order to protect its citizens, HOWEVER it may ONLY do this with oversight (permission based on factual documentation).
I'll leave you with insight from one of our founding fathers:
"They who can give up essential liberty to obtain a little temporary safety, deserve neither liberty nor safety" - Benjamin Franklin
You decide
E
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Friday, June 20, 2008
[+1740] CBS News Correspondent: "I'd blow my brains out"
More food for thought...what if we removed the bias and realized that not everything the government and big media tells us is fact?
Imagine
The latest in a series of recent high-profile media "mea culpas," CBS News chief foreign correspondent Lara Logan told Jon Stewart she'd "blow her brains out" if forced to watch what passes for TV news coverage in America.
Imagine
The latest in a series of recent high-profile media "mea culpas," CBS News chief foreign correspondent Lara Logan told Jon Stewart she'd "blow her brains out" if forced to watch what passes for TV news coverage in America.
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Something to Read
I've been way behind on my bloging as of late. I intend to rectify this soon, but until then you should read this...
Daily Kos: State of the Nation
If you are willing to look, you just might find some truth.
E
Daily Kos: State of the Nation
If you are willing to look, you just might find some truth.
E
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Wednesday, June 11, 2008
I'm voting Republican!
After watching this video my eyes have been opened...
So vote your conscience!
E
PS
for more info check out http://imvotingrepublican.com/
So vote your conscience!
E
PS
for more info check out http://imvotingrepublican.com/
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Tuesday, June 10, 2008
Happy Birthday!
I want to wish my sweetheart the happiest of birthdays!
Since we live hundreds of miles apart, days of celebration are tough for us. No matter how awesome something in your life is, it really isn't that great if no one shares it with you. We both realize the reality and necessity of the space between us, but that doesn't make it any easier. It doesn't make either of us less lonely or long any less for the company of the other. Sadly, sometimes celebration days just end up being a stark reminder of how far apart we really are.
With all that being said, I have hope. I have hope in what the future holds. What it holds for us and our time together. I have hope for the morning I can wake up next to her and create all the mundane, as well as, exciting memories and moments that are what we call life. I have hope for a family and all the joy and hardships that come with it - more memories and moments. I hold on to those hopes to help me get through the days I struggle. I hold out hope against all odds, because I love her so much. I have hope.
So, here's to you, beautiful. On your birthday, I wish you all the hope and love to get you thought until we can be together again. And here's to hoping that will be sooner than later. I'll miss you 'till then.
E
Since we live hundreds of miles apart, days of celebration are tough for us. No matter how awesome something in your life is, it really isn't that great if no one shares it with you. We both realize the reality and necessity of the space between us, but that doesn't make it any easier. It doesn't make either of us less lonely or long any less for the company of the other. Sadly, sometimes celebration days just end up being a stark reminder of how far apart we really are.
With all that being said, I have hope. I have hope in what the future holds. What it holds for us and our time together. I have hope for the morning I can wake up next to her and create all the mundane, as well as, exciting memories and moments that are what we call life. I have hope for a family and all the joy and hardships that come with it - more memories and moments. I hold on to those hopes to help me get through the days I struggle. I hold out hope against all odds, because I love her so much. I have hope.
So, here's to you, beautiful. On your birthday, I wish you all the hope and love to get you thought until we can be together again. And here's to hoping that will be sooner than later. I'll miss you 'till then.
E
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Saturday, June 07, 2008
A must see...
This is a must watch video for all. Please watch and learn. The possibilities are real and have historic relevance, and sadly future implications.
Say YES to Net Neutrality. Scream with the voice you have before you have no voice at all.
E
Say YES to Net Neutrality. Scream with the voice you have before you have no voice at all.
E
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Wednesday, June 04, 2008
What the Flock?
This is my first post with a blog editor! I started using this new web browser that I really like called FLOCK and it has many features built right in. How cool is that? So I don't even have to go to my blog to post to it. Just a click of a button and I'm blogging away. Maybe this will help me to be more blogductive (productive+blog). It allows me to drag and drop pictures into my blog. Like this:
Provided that I can find the picture on the web (that I feel is lame - I mean you should be able to use your local pictures - I'm sure that there is a technical reason, but we should be able to overcome that).
Anyway, I'm still discovering the many cool features (and some limitationsl) but it is my current favorite browser and defiantly worth your time.
'till then,
E
Provided that I can find the picture on the web (that I feel is lame - I mean you should be able to use your local pictures - I'm sure that there is a technical reason, but we should be able to overcome that).
Anyway, I'm still discovering the many cool features (and some limitationsl) but it is my current favorite browser and defiantly worth your time.
'till then,
E
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Monday, June 02, 2008
Time is a Jet Plane; to quote a phrase
Time is a Jet Plane; to quote a phrase
The one commodity in life that everyone needs most is the one we all have the least of - time. Almost everything else is replaceable, but our time on earth is limited. There will only be so much of it, and we each have to choose how we will spend what precious amount of it we have been alloted.
I just took a week off from work and I feel like it was just yesterday that I left the "day to day" grind. I remember when I was in grade school and high school and the hours in a day crawled by as if they were molasses in Antarctica. It would appear life is much like a video game that just keeps speeding up until it is all over, not making it any easier to win. The better you get the harder the difficulty.
That is my excuse for not blogging each day. I will have to re-evaluate my commitment to blogging. I think my goal was a little too advantageous (is that the correct word? maybe lofty would work better, of course then I would need a different verb, but I digress) to start with, so I'm going to attempt to blog 3 times a week and see if I can hit that goal. Maybe then I can work up to something more daily.
Other than being busy with trying to start several new businesses (my web 2.0 site, my public speaking, and my music), being the "on call" person at work, recuperating from moving thousands of ceramic molds for my girlfriend's business, and managing all the relationships in my life - things are going really well. ROTFLMAO. At least it is challenging and never boring, and really I wouldn't want it any other way :)
Be good, and if you can't,
At least be good at it ;)
E
The one commodity in life that everyone needs most is the one we all have the least of - time. Almost everything else is replaceable, but our time on earth is limited. There will only be so much of it, and we each have to choose how we will spend what precious amount of it we have been alloted.
I just took a week off from work and I feel like it was just yesterday that I left the "day to day" grind. I remember when I was in grade school and high school and the hours in a day crawled by as if they were molasses in Antarctica. It would appear life is much like a video game that just keeps speeding up until it is all over, not making it any easier to win. The better you get the harder the difficulty.
That is my excuse for not blogging each day. I will have to re-evaluate my commitment to blogging. I think my goal was a little too advantageous (is that the correct word? maybe lofty would work better, of course then I would need a different verb, but I digress) to start with, so I'm going to attempt to blog 3 times a week and see if I can hit that goal. Maybe then I can work up to something more daily.
Other than being busy with trying to start several new businesses (my web 2.0 site, my public speaking, and my music), being the "on call" person at work, recuperating from moving thousands of ceramic molds for my girlfriend's business, and managing all the relationships in my life - things are going really well. ROTFLMAO. At least it is challenging and never boring, and really I wouldn't want it any other way :)
Be good, and if you can't,
At least be good at it ;)
E
Friday, May 16, 2008
The Opposite of Lazy
It's been so long since I've posted. It would appear that I am neglecting my blog, but that really isn't the case. Since I last updated the world on my goings on so much has happened.
My business partner came up from Dallas and we finalized some projects and met with a web development firm. My sweetheart came up and visited for a while - which was wonderful. Then my great uncle passed away and I was off to Kentucky for the funeral.
So I'm just catching up. I have thoughts and things to say when I have more time, but for now I just wanted everyone to know I haven't forgotten about the blogging world. I'll be back soon with more updates...
'Till then,
E
My business partner came up from Dallas and we finalized some projects and met with a web development firm. My sweetheart came up and visited for a while - which was wonderful. Then my great uncle passed away and I was off to Kentucky for the funeral.
So I'm just catching up. I have thoughts and things to say when I have more time, but for now I just wanted everyone to know I haven't forgotten about the blogging world. I'll be back soon with more updates...
'Till then,
E
Tuesday, May 06, 2008
Atiscipation
Today my sweetheart and my business partner should be arriving in town for a week of business and pleasure. I'm totally stoked. The balance between business and pleasure is always a tough one to successfully strike. That is especially true wen you really enjoy those you are around and must conduct business with them. I'm confident that we will find that balance this week. If not, it will prove to be far more unpleasant than one would hope for.
Be good, and if you can't,
At least be good at it ;)
E
Be good, and if you can't,
At least be good at it ;)
E
Monday, May 05, 2008
Anyone?
Anyone who would spend 1.7 million dollars on a car should have their head examined. I mean, don't you think? I think so. Say nothing of the company that would offer such a thing, but as a person I believe that is an unconscionable choice. I'm not saying that we shouldn't be able to reward ourselves for the hard work we have done. I'm not even saying that we should not have luxurious lifestyles. What I am saying is "there is a fundamental issue at the root of the justification process one must go through to believe there's nothing wrong with such an insane extravagance"
I had a discussion over the weekend that disturbed me greatly. At the center of this discussion was the question above. I must admit, I have been flabbergasted that someone could possibly think like this - at least someone with moral values. Maybe that is really where the issue lies for me. I realize that many, many people ignore those less fortunate. I do it all the time too. However, the reason behind the ignorance in question is the issue, I think.
I know that I ignore the plight of the less fortunate because I can't afford to make a difference, most of the time. I believe that this is the same reason that most of us ignore the less fortunate. We are all so busy attempting to survive that we don't have the resources to attend to our compassion. Not that I see it as a truly valid excuse. I still believe that we should help where we are able when we see the opportunity. Until, I become financially independent this is the way I have to attend to my compassion.
Now, the reason that someone with the financial wherewithal to purchase a car priced at 1.7 million dollars would ignore the plight of those less fortunate is not as clear to me. Well, maybe it is clear to me, however I don't want to believe that it is the case. The only rational that I can come up with is they care more about their luxury than the human condition within this world. Is there another reason? Is it that they are just not aware, or self aware? Is it that they just don't give a damn? Is it that they feel justified in letting some little child in Africa (or America, you can choose your nationality of poverty) die of starvation because they have already donated x amount of funds already? I could keep asking the questions, but I fear that if you don't understand my point yet - you probably won't.
The pain of this for me, more than anything else, is that this horrible point of view came from someone close to me. From someone whom I know, should know better. From someone who is a practicing Christian. I still believe that if God exists that he/she looks at the heart of the individual - the reason or motivation. I can't imagine a scenario where a person's heart could be in the right place when purchasing a 1.7 million dollar car.
I just don't understand how it fits with:
“Teacher, which is the great commandment in the law?”
Jesus said to him, “ ‘You shall love the LORD your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your mind.’ This is the first and great commandment. And the second is like it: ‘You shall love your neighbor as yourself.’ On these two commandments hang all the Law and the Prophets.”
E
I had a discussion over the weekend that disturbed me greatly. At the center of this discussion was the question above. I must admit, I have been flabbergasted that someone could possibly think like this - at least someone with moral values. Maybe that is really where the issue lies for me. I realize that many, many people ignore those less fortunate. I do it all the time too. However, the reason behind the ignorance in question is the issue, I think.
I know that I ignore the plight of the less fortunate because I can't afford to make a difference, most of the time. I believe that this is the same reason that most of us ignore the less fortunate. We are all so busy attempting to survive that we don't have the resources to attend to our compassion. Not that I see it as a truly valid excuse. I still believe that we should help where we are able when we see the opportunity. Until, I become financially independent this is the way I have to attend to my compassion.
Now, the reason that someone with the financial wherewithal to purchase a car priced at 1.7 million dollars would ignore the plight of those less fortunate is not as clear to me. Well, maybe it is clear to me, however I don't want to believe that it is the case. The only rational that I can come up with is they care more about their luxury than the human condition within this world. Is there another reason? Is it that they are just not aware, or self aware? Is it that they just don't give a damn? Is it that they feel justified in letting some little child in Africa (or America, you can choose your nationality of poverty) die of starvation because they have already donated x amount of funds already? I could keep asking the questions, but I fear that if you don't understand my point yet - you probably won't.
The pain of this for me, more than anything else, is that this horrible point of view came from someone close to me. From someone whom I know, should know better. From someone who is a practicing Christian. I still believe that if God exists that he/she looks at the heart of the individual - the reason or motivation. I can't imagine a scenario where a person's heart could be in the right place when purchasing a 1.7 million dollar car.
I just don't understand how it fits with:
“Teacher, which is the great commandment in the law?”
Jesus said to him, “ ‘You shall love the LORD your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your mind.’ This is the first and great commandment. And the second is like it: ‘You shall love your neighbor as yourself.’ On these two commandments hang all the Law and the Prophets.”
E
Sunday, May 04, 2008
Work to be done
I'm not doing very well on my commitment to my blog. I'm making strides in the correct direction, but I'm still failing. I hope to improve - in all areas of my life, really.
I wish I was already there. I get frustrated too easily. I'm vicious with my words. I intimidate people. The funny thing is I don't see myself that way at all, but I see those things in myself and I'm forced to wonder how they get there and how come they feel more natural than being who I feel like I am. Like when did communication become so tough for me? When did I lose the ability to easily understand what others were trying to say? In short, how have I become the person that I am today?
Because, sometimes I just don't recognize myself.
I have lots of excuses. However, I don't believe in excuses. I can rationalize why I act the way I do, but that is just an easy way to get out of something I don't want to deal with. I just have to deal with the reality that I'm not who I think I am, but I can become who I want to be. Really, that is the only real solace on which I have to fall back. The only thing I have to look forward to, that will encourage my sad realization and spur it on to something greater than it is currently.
I choose to become who I want to be.
You can choose too.
E
PS
I'm sorry for those of you that have to deal with me when I find myself being who I currently am instead of who I aspire to be. Please be patient. I'm working on it.
I wish I was already there. I get frustrated too easily. I'm vicious with my words. I intimidate people. The funny thing is I don't see myself that way at all, but I see those things in myself and I'm forced to wonder how they get there and how come they feel more natural than being who I feel like I am. Like when did communication become so tough for me? When did I lose the ability to easily understand what others were trying to say? In short, how have I become the person that I am today?
Because, sometimes I just don't recognize myself.
I have lots of excuses. However, I don't believe in excuses. I can rationalize why I act the way I do, but that is just an easy way to get out of something I don't want to deal with. I just have to deal with the reality that I'm not who I think I am, but I can become who I want to be. Really, that is the only real solace on which I have to fall back. The only thing I have to look forward to, that will encourage my sad realization and spur it on to something greater than it is currently.
I choose to become who I want to be.
You can choose too.
E
PS
I'm sorry for those of you that have to deal with me when I find myself being who I currently am instead of who I aspire to be. Please be patient. I'm working on it.
Friday, May 02, 2008
Web Apps
I find that I have addictions in my life - a lot of them. For me, most of the time, they don't last for long periods of time. I'll delve in to a subject, a food, an experience with all intensity for a short period of time, and then I'm on to the next addiction. For a while I was addicted to blogging. Once I was addicted to Martika (80's pop singer - Toy Soldiers). Well, now it would appear that I'm addicted to Web applications.
It would appear to me that the future of information technology resides within the web browser (I know, I know, Microsoft has been headed that direction for years - but it wasn't until Google Docs showed up on the scene that web apps became a viable reality - at least from my discovery point). And this discovery has led me to become fascinated with all things web. I've force fed all my friends StumbleUpon and begged them to start using Twitter. I've explored Pandora (as in the box - well sort of) and I've been fascinated with CoolIris products to such a degree that I can't imagine how I was able to browse the interweb without it (seriously, you install Cooliris PicLens or Prieviews and use then for a week and see if you don't feel the same way). I've even started using multiple web browsers to get the full experience. I'm not up to do a full web browser review (I'm sure there are plenty of them on the web anyway), however, for me Firefox is the one. There are things about all of them that I like and dislike - Safari has a great look (but then again don't ALL Apple products have a great look?), Opera is fast and efficient, and SeaMonkey is great for that all-in-one product - but the one I always go back to is Firefox. Ohh, I almost forgot, yeah, I also use Internet Explorer. I have to confess, that I do indeed use IE, but only when a developer forces me to (this is a complete other rant - for another day). In fact, I don't really know anyone who uses IE except when they are forced to (and all my MCSE "Microsoft is God" friends don't count - they can't be objective most of the time).
Anyway, I have found new a new addiction, so I wanted to share it with you. That way, maybe you can have a new addiction too!
Be good, and if you can't,
At least be good at it ;)
E
PS
I never mentioned any of my log-term addictions that are truly important, but Sweetheart I love you :)
It would appear to me that the future of information technology resides within the web browser (I know, I know, Microsoft has been headed that direction for years - but it wasn't until Google Docs showed up on the scene that web apps became a viable reality - at least from my discovery point). And this discovery has led me to become fascinated with all things web. I've force fed all my friends StumbleUpon and begged them to start using Twitter. I've explored Pandora (as in the box - well sort of) and I've been fascinated with CoolIris products to such a degree that I can't imagine how I was able to browse the interweb without it (seriously, you install Cooliris PicLens or Prieviews and use then for a week and see if you don't feel the same way). I've even started using multiple web browsers to get the full experience. I'm not up to do a full web browser review (I'm sure there are plenty of them on the web anyway), however, for me Firefox is the one. There are things about all of them that I like and dislike - Safari has a great look (but then again don't ALL Apple products have a great look?), Opera is fast and efficient, and SeaMonkey is great for that all-in-one product - but the one I always go back to is Firefox. Ohh, I almost forgot, yeah, I also use Internet Explorer. I have to confess, that I do indeed use IE, but only when a developer forces me to (this is a complete other rant - for another day). In fact, I don't really know anyone who uses IE except when they are forced to (and all my MCSE "Microsoft is God" friends don't count - they can't be objective most of the time).
Anyway, I have found new a new addiction, so I wanted to share it with you. That way, maybe you can have a new addiction too!
Be good, and if you can't,
At least be good at it ;)
E
PS
I never mentioned any of my log-term addictions that are truly important, but Sweetheart I love you :)
Thursday, May 01, 2008
Time is a Sprinter
I'm convinced that time is a runner. We all see time as a distance runner because it is, however, it is also a very decent sprinter. Sure, it is constant, and doesn't appear very fast at the beginning, but when we get closer to the end time appears to pick up the pace at a breakneck pace. It even appears that we are running out of it.
That is my excuse, anyway, for missing my daily commitment to the blog. I felt so ill when I finished my day this morning around 1am and realized that I had missed my blogging window for the day :(
So, I have strengthened my resolve and I am going to press on. I may not have much to say right this second, but world beware!
E
That is my excuse, anyway, for missing my daily commitment to the blog. I felt so ill when I finished my day this morning around 1am and realized that I had missed my blogging window for the day :(
So, I have strengthened my resolve and I am going to press on. I may not have much to say right this second, but world beware!
E
Monday, April 28, 2008
Fear of Commitment
I've been told that commitment is good for the soul. In fact, someone tried to convince me once to get a tattoo because it would be good for my commitment issues. I'm not sure one can resolve what some consider to be a male gene by permanently affixing ink within ones skin, but at the time it was a compelling argument (if it wasn't I probably would have forgotten it). Some would say that 50% of the commitments in this country end in non-commitment. I'm not really sure how good that is for the soul, but I'm convinced that it is good for the heart and the pursuit of happiness.
With this in mind, I'm making a commitment. That's right, I believe that commitment could be good for my soul. I, however, need to take baby steps. Baby steps into the elevator. Baby steps around the commitment. No, I'm not getting married - yet - but I hope that isn't far behind :) Baby steps. I'm going to blog every day. That is my commitment to myself (and, of course, you my faithful readers). If I can tackle commitment on a small stage maybe I can think about handling it on the stage that matters most.
So look for my musings and wit in the days to come!
Be good, and if you can't,
At least be good at it ;)
E
With this in mind, I'm making a commitment. That's right, I believe that commitment could be good for my soul. I, however, need to take baby steps. Baby steps into the elevator. Baby steps around the commitment. No, I'm not getting married - yet - but I hope that isn't far behind :) Baby steps. I'm going to blog every day. That is my commitment to myself (and, of course, you my faithful readers). If I can tackle commitment on a small stage maybe I can think about handling it on the stage that matters most.
So look for my musings and wit in the days to come!
Be good, and if you can't,
At least be good at it ;)
E
Sunday, April 27, 2008
Time and Again
Apparently, I have this need to wait a full year or more in between posts.
I love music. It is not only the background of our lives but a part of who we are and who we aspire to be - who we wish we were and who we wish we were with - and so much more and so much less. When I was working on the 2004 presidential campaign I became an acquainted with an artist who's music I just love. We had some conversations and then lost touch as I lost touch with the direction of my life. Well today I found his website and started listening to his new album. Just listening to him moves me, inspires me, and a host of other adjectives that are fairly pointless without action. So I got out my guitar and started to play again. Thank you once again Matthew Ryan. I'll tell you like I was told - Run, do not walk, directly to matthewryanonline.com and find yourself - again.
WARNING!
Be careful with your relationships - the fall out from a bad one can derail you and your purpose in life for, well, ever if you let them. I've come to a renaissance in my life recently. I'm just now really starting to piece my life back together in a form that I'm happy with. After two tough derailments and 12 years I finally feel like I'm getting back to me. That is due, in no small part, to the woman who stands by my side today. She is everything I could hope for and more, and no words are created that will do her justice - from her astonishing beauty to her biting wit she is more than language has the ability to express. I soooooooo love her!
Till next time,
E
I love music. It is not only the background of our lives but a part of who we are and who we aspire to be - who we wish we were and who we wish we were with - and so much more and so much less. When I was working on the 2004 presidential campaign I became an acquainted with an artist who's music I just love. We had some conversations and then lost touch as I lost touch with the direction of my life. Well today I found his website and started listening to his new album. Just listening to him moves me, inspires me, and a host of other adjectives that are fairly pointless without action. So I got out my guitar and started to play again. Thank you once again Matthew Ryan. I'll tell you like I was told - Run, do not walk, directly to matthewryanonline.com and find yourself - again.
WARNING!
Be careful with your relationships - the fall out from a bad one can derail you and your purpose in life for, well, ever if you let them. I've come to a renaissance in my life recently. I'm just now really starting to piece my life back together in a form that I'm happy with. After two tough derailments and 12 years I finally feel like I'm getting back to me. That is due, in no small part, to the woman who stands by my side today. She is everything I could hope for and more, and no words are created that will do her justice - from her astonishing beauty to her biting wit she is more than language has the ability to express. I soooooooo love her!
Till next time,
E
"My baby sparkle and shine
Sparkle and shine
Sparkle and shine
My baby sparkle and shine
And everyone knows she’s fine
And everyone knows she’s mine"
-Steve Earle from Washington Square Serenade
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