Fear of Commitment

I've been told that commitment is good for the soul. In fact, someone tried to convince me once to get a tattoo because it would be good for my commitment issues. I'm not sure one can resolve what some consider to be a male gene by permanently affixing ink within ones skin, but at the time it was a compelling argument (if it wasn't I probably would have forgotten it). Some would say that 50% of the commitments in this country end in non-commitment. I'm not really sure how good that is for the soul, but I'm convinced that it is good for the heart and the pursuit of happiness.

With this in mind, I'm making a commitment. That's right, I believe that commitment could be good for my soul. I, however, need to take baby steps. Baby steps into the elevator. Baby steps around the commitment. No, I'm not getting married - yet - but I hope that isn't far behind :) Baby steps. I'm going to blog every day. That is my commitment to myself (and, of course, you my faithful readers). If I can tackle commitment on a small stage maybe I can think about handling it on the stage that matters most.

So look for my musings and wit in the days to come!

Be good, and if you can't,
At least be good at it ;)

E

Time and Again

Apparently, I have this need to wait a full year or more in between posts.

I love music. It is not only the background of our lives but a part of who we are and who we aspire to be - who we wish we were and who we wish we were with - and so much more and so much less. When I was working on the 2004 presidential campaign I became an acquainted with an artist who's music I just love. We had some conversations and then lost touch as I lost touch with the direction of my life. Well today I found his website and started listening to his new album. Just listening to him moves me, inspires me, and a host of other adjectives that are fairly pointless without action. So I got out my guitar and started to play again. Thank you once again Matthew Ryan. I'll tell you like I was told - Run, do not walk, directly to matthewryanonline.com and find yourself - again.

WARNING!
Be careful with your relationships - the fall out from a bad one can derail you and your purpose in life for, well, ever if you let them. I've come to a renaissance in my life recently. I'm just now really starting to piece my life back together in a form that I'm happy with. After two tough derailments and 12 years I finally feel like I'm getting back to me. That is due, in no small part, to the woman who stands by my side today. She is everything I could hope for and more, and no words are created that will do her justice - from her astonishing beauty to her biting wit she is more than language has the ability to express. I soooooooo love her!

Till next time,
E

"My baby sparkle and shine
Sparkle and shine
Sparkle and shine
My baby sparkle and shine
And everyone knows she’s fine

And everyone knows she’s mine"

-Steve Earle from Washington Square Serenade