Sometimes

How do you feel right now? Are you happy? Are you depressed? Do you find that it is hard to describe your feelings? When life throws you the inevitable curve or victory can you really describe how wonderful or painful it really is? I can't.

There is almost no way that I can describe to you how thrilling and exciting it was the first time a music project came together in the recording studio. The feeling that you had put together something that might affect people's lives the way other people's art had affected yours, to convey this feeling to you, words fail me.

I can't tell you in great enough detail to really communicate how my heart sank the time that I saw the alleged woman of my dreams all dolled up to meet her man who just arrived in town. And I just knew at that moment, what the reality really was. She was in love. Her happiness was the bane of my very existence, and the existence of all my mind and heart could ever aspire to become one with. How her most amazing smile that could light the deepest and darkest crevices of my soul would burn through my heart muscles leaving nothing but the remains of a soulmate fantasy, because it is for him that she smiles. And the knowledge that I will never be able to bring that kind of joy to her life even for a brief moment leaves me without breath as a child on a playground who has fallen from the top of the slide and had the wind knocked out of him. Gasping for air to no avail.

Triumphs, defeats, solutions, answers, exhilaration, and all the highs and lows that life has to offer. Sometimes you just can't explain them.

Sometimes